Since I have been married almost 2 years and till now I didn't get pregnant, my doctor advised me to do a blood test to check the storage of ovum that I have before starting the treatment, and actually this test is not available in UAE, so the hospital sent it outside and informed me that it usually takes 10 days to get the result back. I did it two months back and I didn't get the courage to follow up with the doctor to know the result, today I waked up and decided to take this day off and get the result ... and wished I didn't! I have no storage! I have no ovum remaining! even I am not that old!, She told me this thing is from Allah, born with us and all your storage have been consumed over the years, and this storage is depending on how many ovum we have when we born.
سبحانك يارب لا علم لنا الا ما علمتنا
لا إله إلا أنت وحدك لا شريك لك، لك الملك ولك الحمد وانت على كل شيء قدير
اللهم لا مانع لما أعطيت، ولا معطي لما منعت، ولا ينفع ذا الجد منك الجد
Yesterday I was hearing Quran and the shiak reached to this ayah so i left the room to not hear this ayah as I had a feeling that I may be عقيم! and today I got the result to prove my feeling!
﴿لِلَّهِ مُلْكُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ يَخْلُقُ مَا يَشَاء يَهَبُ لِمَنْ يَشَاء إِنَاثًا وَيَهَبُ لِمَن يَشَاء الذُّكُورَ * أَوْ يُزَوِّجُهُمْ ذُكْرَانًا وَإِنَاثًا وَيَجْعَلُ مَن يَشَاء عَقِيمًا إِنَّهُ عَلِيمٌ قَدِيرٌ﴾(1)
Now it really black and not I am in a bad mood! الحمد لله على كل حال ... and I am sure this thing is for my good.