Is it Eve so sensitive and leaded by her emotions?! or her expectations cannot be reached??!!
Alhadullah Nothing is wrong in my new life; Yet I am passing though a frustration and low spirits mood and I don't know why?!! Is it the changes on the life style? or the disordering issue because of the new house shifting? or my expectations are so high? or I am missing my own time, my own decisions and my own controlling to my life?!!
I am really tried and mixed up with lot of thoughts. The problem that I am not able to cry as previous. I am just keeping all this pressure on my heart with try to keep my smile on. Really I am afriad to reach a point that I lose my power and break down. I wish I can cry to get all this load from my heart but my tears are letting me down.
On another side; few days age we recieved a gorgeous and elegent wedding gift, it was really a wonderful surprise when I came and found it at the home entrance :) It cheered me up and gave me some power :)
I am really tried and mixed up with lot of thoughts. The problem that I am not able to cry as previous. I am just keeping all this pressure on my heart with try to keep my smile on. Really I am afriad to reach a point that I lose my power and break down. I wish I can cry to get all this load from my heart but my tears are letting me down.
On another side; few days age we recieved a gorgeous and elegent wedding gift, it was really a wonderful surprise when I came and found it at the home entrance :) It cheered me up and gave me some power :)
Morning LioneSS
ReplyDeleteSure Something Like This Would Be Missed (Controlling Your Life And Making Your Own Decisions) , I Went Through This Myself Too.
But Whenever I Look To The Whole Picture, I Say To Myself : It Was Worthy :)
I Believe That Answering These Questions Can Only Come From You Sis.
Good Luck And Happy Life Too, You Deserve The Best, Don't Forget That.
مش كإنه لازم أو مستحب إنك تشاطري هالأفكار مع زوجك لإنه حياتكم محبب إنها تنبنى على الصراحه حتى لوكانت شكوى او تذمر او حتى زناخه وكبة بلا عليه
ReplyDeleteوهوه هلأ ضهرك اللي رح بتنسندي عليه ومع إنها صعبه بس خليه يعرف إنه فيكي جانب أسود ومش حلو عشان يساعدك وما يفهمك غلط
حتى لو ضليتي مبتسمه بتكوني مفهومه خديها مني
حاولي إكسري الجليد بيناتكم وإحكيله هالخوف اللي مسيطر عليكي حتى لو بدون تبنيد وبدون إيضاح إنه هالشغله الجديده على حياتك صعبه وبعدك مش قادره تتأقلمي عليها
الله يكون في عونك يارب ويسهلك كل أمورك
I guess Lunar said it best :)
ReplyDeleteIt`s a new life, new era, just indulge in it :) it`s not that hard, blv me :)
Well, if crying will make you feel better, don't hesitate, some problems can't be solved with crying...and that is the problem !
ReplyDeleteCheer up!
I agree with Lunar Pasha. New life style, apparent loss of power and new environment are enough to depress anyone if not fully ready for the change. Things sure will ease by time. Be closer to Allah will help.
ReplyDeleteTry to get closer to your husband. Try to enjoy life by engaging in whatever you both like or like to explore. Share with him good things and feelings. Try to avoid sharing with him the depressed feeling you are having (you may tell him only if you are sure he will react positively to this). After some time you can share good and bad things/feelings with him (for the time being explore his personality more before doing that.)
Take your time and do not get worry about your current feelings. You do not need to cry. You need to be happy. Work for that.
حبيبتي الوضع طبيعي جدا...اي تغيير بالحياه بده وقت ليتأقلم عليه الواحد و بكون بالبداية كتير صعب و خصوصا بس يكون تغيير جذري للحياه, لا تقلقي ولا تهتمي ان شاء الله الايام بتمشي و بترجعي لطبيعتك الحلوه
ReplyDeleteدائما فكري بالايجابيات بحياتك و قارنيها بالسلبيات اللي شايفتيها وان شاء الله كفّة الايجابيات راح ترجح
لا تخافي...مشاعرك طبيعيه ومتوقعه....التغيير مش سهل وخصوصا لما يكون من استقلاليه تامه الى مشاركه كامله...شوية وقت وبتتعودي على النظام الجديد...الله يسعدك ويوفقك
ReplyDeleteI get that feeling too, but as long as you keep going on, pulling through, such feelings don't matter.
ReplyDeleteGood Morning Lunar Basha :)
ReplyDeleteAs you said, when I look to the whole situation I find it much better and worth :)
But don't know why from time to time I feel stressed :( It seems I need a time to get used to the new situation :)
Thanks for your kind wishes :) and wish you the same :)
Anonymous ^_^
ReplyDeleteاطلعي من تحت الخبيزه عرفتك يامّا :D
بدون ما احكي هو حاسس هالشغله، و بحاول يساعدني اني اطلع من هالمود :S
اعطاني اليوم فري :yai:
Full day out with my friends as I used to do before :yai:
بس شكلوا لانه هو كمان عنده نفس الشعور و بدي يوم يطلع مع اصحابه :D
تسلمي يا قمرة :D
Haitham :)
ReplyDeleteSometime I forget that I am married now :S But really I am trying my best to get used to the situation quickly :S before he kills me :D Just kidding 6ab3an about the killing part :D be5af Allah bel ta3amol ma3i :D Al hamdullah :)
Abuelsharif
ReplyDeleteFirst welcome to my blog :)
Actually I wanna cry but I am not able :S my tears don't want to fall any more :S
On other hand; it is not a bad thing :) Seems it is enough tears for me :)
Thanks for passing by :)
Saleh Basha :)
ReplyDeleteYes, the change came quickly, only one month and I found myself in a different environment, this is one reasone.
and the second reason is the long working hours and less time for us together. but as u said I should be more close to him whenever I find a space.
Insha'allah it is metter of time and everthing will be fine :)
Thanks for the advice :)
Whisper,
ReplyDeleteتسلمي يا قمرة و الله من الاشياء اللي مضايقتني كمان تقصيري مع صحباتي
و كتير انتي في بالي و لازم افضّي حالي ليوم اشوفك
ابقي دايما طمنيني عنك و نسمع عنك كل الاخبار الحلوة يارب :)
naysan :)
ReplyDeleteكتير حبيت التعبير
"من استقلاليه تامه الى مشاركه كامله"
فعليا هون المشكله الكبيرة .. بس طمنتيني انها مسألة وقت ان شاء الله و بتأقلم على الحياه الجديدة :)
تسلمي على الكلمات الحلوة :)
sadia :)
ReplyDeleteLong time didn't see u in the blogging world :) welcome back :)
Yes, as u said I have to remove these thoughs from my mind and try to think positively on my new life.
wish you all the happiness in your life :)